falling again

I lay, looking at my hands
I search in these lines
I`ve not the answer
I`m crying and I don`t know
watching the sky
I search an answer
I`m free, free to be
I`m not another liar
I just want to be myself… myself
And now the beat inside me
is a sort of a cold breeze
and I`ve never any feeling inside
ruining me…bring my body
carry it into another world
I know I live… but like a stone I`m falling down

I pray, looking into the sky
I can feel this rain
right now it`s falling on me
fly, I just want to fly
life is all mine
some days I cry alone,but I know I`m not the only one
I`m here, another day is gone
I don`t want to die…?
Please be there when I`ll arrive, don`t cry… please